Unexpected Tears

I thought I was doing really well. I thought I would miss my grandchildren, my parents, my sister and my children, but not so much that it would be a huge deal. Then today as I was sorting through old files I came across the immunization records of my children. I looked at each of them and they reminded me of so many things. How adorable Kim was and what a cute, talented little girl she was. How afraid Chantel was whenever we took her to a doctor and what a beautiful, kind little girl she was. How brave Cherie was and how tiny she was and what a sweet natured baby and child she was. Then I came to Julie's. I remembered how she broke out with red spots all over her body after her smallpox vaccination (which they no longer gave by the time Kim was born) and how worried I was about this. I remembered how I told her it would be fun to go get a shot - and she believed me! She didn't even cry, she only looked surprised. It wasn't until the third booster that she figured out that it wasn't fun. All of these memories brought tears to my eyes, then there were even more tears. I realized that I really am going to miss my family more than I bravely tried to tell myself I would. After all, they are an adorable family, so who could blame me.